Glad you were able to connect with us online Dustin, and we appreciate your honesty - sorry, sounds like it's been a tough season. It'd be great to see you on a Sunday and get to know more of your story.
I pray that you will be able to get your girlfriend to church in a way that isn't off-putting for her. Consider, as you do, the perspective she's coming from. In other words, put yourself in her shoes, which is key to practicing the golden rule that Messiah taught us: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you (if you were in their shoes). You may want to take her to a small group where questions are encouraged, rather than just sitting in a big room where the pastor gives a monologue, as if he knows what to say to everyone. She'll need opportunities to get some of her questions answered, in order for her faith to grow. If, due to your economic situation, you and her aren't able to get to a church, GRAB any opportunity that comes up during your time together, especially at home, to look for answers in the Bible and on Christian websites, and Messianic websites. Little by little, the two of you will grow, together. Never stop growing-- later in life, you'll be glad you didn't.
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