Please come to the Masjid and seek guide from our beautiful brothers and sisters in person.
Salamu alaikum sorry you may feel this way. But understand that our iman increases and decreases time to time. Knowing this we should increase our ibadh (worship) and good acts which in return will increase our iman (faith). May Allah make this easy for you. And Grant you forgiveness. Amiin
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