I'm sure Calvary Church or Chapel has a griefshare prayer group. Join the group and become a member and have people pray with you that have similar experience. Strength and numbers. Remember, Jesus grieved for his friend Lazarus who He later raised from the dead. Not saying your friend will be raised from the dead:) . But Jesus fully God fully human experiences grief and loss. So you're not alone.
Grieve and let it go but remember your brother, always. Keep him close to you but let it out. Talk, write, run, bike, meet people. You have to live. Your brother would want that for you. God bless you.
Live for your brother because that is what he would have wanted. Everyone has some sort of mental anguish or suffering, life is full of it. All we have control over is our own actions. So, choose to live life instead of just getting through it. I'm sure your brother will be waiting for you in the end. Hope this helps. My thoughts are with you.
God bless you Edward... My heart goes out to you in your heartbreak. I am going to the same thing over my nephew... One thing that helps me get through itis God's promise to us that he tells us in : J John 14:1-3 14 Let not your heart be troubled: you believe in God, believe also in Me. 2 In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto Myself; that where I am, there you may be also." See brother,this Earth was never meant to be our home my home is with our Heavenly Father God... It says in the Bible that when we leave here.... That we are with Him. 'To be absent here is to be in the presence of the Lord." And here's how I feel now,whenever I think about my nephew going home I remember that Bible verse and I think to myself: I'll see him again one day... It's not goodbye, just, I'll see you later." 👑God bless and comfort you Edward.
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